When I die, I would like to be remembered for my obsession with life. I don’t know exactly where it originated but it’s something I think about constantly and every single day. It sounds cliché but I do not go a day without worshipping the life I’ve been given. I can get lost in the fascination of being human. Many people avoid taking the time to reflect on the miracle that is us but I definitely do not.
I think this is the reason I’ve always been able to laugh at even the shittiest of situations. Of course, I have normal freakouts, yelling fits or outbursts but for me, they’re therapeutic and help me move past things quicker. The give me the pause I need to take the darkness of the moment and crumple it up like a piece of paper so that I can play trashcan basketball and begin to have fun again. I don’t take things for granted in this life. I appreciate what was given to me and I’ve mentioned in the past that’s why I put such a heavy focus on health and enjoyment. I’d rather look back and laugh then look back and cry or feel sad about the messes I’ve encountered.
At the end of the day, it’s the experiences that make us who we are. There’s always room for laughter. Even in death, there’s room for laughter. I don’t understand why some people avoid speaking about death. Maybe they fear dying or don’t want to wonder how it will all go down but yet they’ll stress over something way more trivial that’s not guaranteed. Death is a known certainty and a given. Yet, for some reason, we avoid talking about it.
You cannot appreciate a flower without understanding that the beauty of it is followed by the withering, death and regeneration of that same beautiful flower. The question about the afterlife comes up in every circle from time to time. What to believe in and what to wonder is a big topic to sink your teeth in but I don’t occupy my mind with the what if’s of the afterlife when I know so certain that this short time blip we’re here on this earth is such an incredible gift.
If you can see the gift an appreciate what it is, everything else gets lighter. Understand this being human in today’s day is not normal. We’ve created an enormously false atmosphere when compared to the genetic makeup we occupy. Embrace that gift of being a human, making mistakes, learning from them, being better because of it and laughing at everything you can in between. When we realize we’re not going to “figure it out” is when we open the door to start living freely again.